Come Worry with Us!

(ORCHESTRA PLAYING)

The hangman's got a hard-on

The pretty minstrels sway

The pundit reeks of coffin

The banker rapes a maid

We will not sing

In your damn parade

(SINGING)

We will not sing

In your damn parade

We will not sing

In your damn parade

We will not sing

In your damn parade

We will not sing

JESSICA MOSS:
They were really

serious people

that were taking

the world seriously.

When I heard that they were

thinking about expanding their band

I jumped at the opportunity.

(VOCALIZING)

EFRIM MENUCK:

We made this decision

that we were going

to be a touring band.

We were going to be able to throw

our sh*t on any stage anywhere

any day of the week

and at least win over

a handful of people

in the room.

Some! Hearts! Are! True!

Some! Hearts! Are! True!

Every song Mt. Zion

has ever played

has sort of had the same

basic theme to it.

That, you know, things are bad now

and they have to get better,

which will get you heckled

at a lot of places

if you start

talking about that stuff.

But people are good

and together we can do anything.

(CROWD CHEERING)

MENUCK:
Merci. Merci. Merci.

Thank you.

(BABY GURGLING)

MOSS:
Oh, there we go,

see that's good. Let him hear it.

MOSS:
We never considered

not touring with Ezra.

We were making a record. We were

going to tour as much as we could.

I was worried but I felt

really confident as well.

I knew we could do it.

We toured through

North America and Europe.

He went from six months

to nine months during that period.

I've put it in such

a safety deposit box

and put it so far out

in the back of my head.

It was incredibly difficult.

For both of us.

It was an incredibly

difficult experience. It really was.

It was pretty lonely

and isolating

and there was not

very much sleep.

And I felt so on the outside

of my band on that tour.

I felt like a burden.

(SINGING)

MENUCK:
I just felt

guilt and inadequacy on that tour,

on the parenting front.

I felt incapable

of doing more.

MOSS:
We sort of got separated

into these traditional roles very quickly.

All I knew how to do

was keep this baby happy.

Efrim needed to be out in the world

taking care of everything else.

I built myself a metal bird

I fed my metal bird

MOSS:
On the other hand,

you know, we did it. We did it.

You know, I look at the photos

and it was incredible what we did.

Ezra was learning

how to stand and walk

on the bus

while it was moving.

You want me

to write a dog?

You want me

to write a train?

I'm going to

write you a train.

Say, "Hi, camera."

MENUCK:
If it weren't

for getting to know Jessica's family,

I have no experience

with good familial relationships.

Even though I loved Ezra I didn't know

how to relate to him so much.

I think I was emotionally absent

almost all of the time.

MOSS:
We were both

very unprepared

for the enormity

of having an infant.

MENUCK:
I didn't get too freaked out

when I was broke before, you know?

Now I get super anxious.

Any touring musician,

your bank account is going to go up

and they get drained

almost immediately.

Like anyone who's

doing contract work.

The expenses of touring for us

have gone through the roof.

It's a lot more expensive

for us to tour now.

We have to

bring a nanny,

we have to tour

in a tour bus,

which we never considered

doing before we had a kid.

I mean, you know,

those are huge expenses.

Most of my head now is consumed

with this idea that I have to provide.

Daddy. Oh, Daddy.

(INAUDIBLE)

(EZRA TALKING INDISTINCTLY)

MOSS:
Yeah. I'll bet.

EZRA:
Go bye-bye.

Go bye-bye.

We've been together six or seven

years now. Seven years almost.

This is the first time where

we're not doing the same thing.

And it's Godspeed

so there's like,

you know, thousands of

adoring fans every night.

And I'm getting up and going to the

Y playgroup, you know?

-Going to the cafe.

-Yeah.

And this is my life and I know

it's not forever but...

-You're a wife.

-So crazy.

-Like, I'm at home.

-But I feel like it's going to go by...

I'm a stay-at-home mom.

You're a stay-at-home-mom,

you really are.

If you look at it on paper, Efrim's off

working and bringing home the bacon.

Mmm-hmm.

Jessica's at home with the baby,

cooking and cleaning.

You want a book?

This one? -No.

-This one?

-No.

This one?

-Yeah.

-Yeah?

That.

That's water

you put on the tray.

That's water

you put on the tray.

That's water

in the book.

You're smart.

MOSS:
This is a collage

I made for Efrim's record.

It's the first artwork I've done

since Ezra was born.

I think we might

photograph it.

I just want to make sure it doesn't

look like ever it was in Photoshop.

This record that Efrim's making

is very personal

and I think it's

pretty incredible

that he's asked for a painting of him

and Ezra on the cover.

I do too.

When I started to paint it,

I thought, "Okay, I have to

be prepared that it might be...

"End up being too much..."

-Right. For him.

-Like he might...

Yeah, he told me on the phone

how much he loves it.

Okay, good.

What do you see?

(BABY TALK)

NADIA MOSS:
He did something that he

artistically wanted to do

from something

he had in his heart.

Like a poetic response

to his son.

He has the time, I guess and

the luxury of making like this beautiful...

And the support.

And the support to make

a piece of art

about his son

and fatherhood

and it's beautiful.

I mean, you get to

have a lot of things but I don't...

You don't get to step back,

I guess, from the situation,

the parenting,

and like respond to it.

Don't you find that art

about motherhood is...

There's an aspect

of like... (SHUDDERS)

-Yeah, I know.

-Why?

-...not interested.

-I know.

Isn't that weird?

Still, to this day,

women's narratives

are not considered as interesting

and that's just all there is to it

but I think maybe

there's something else.

Like there's

the time aspect.

Or that's what I'm realizing...

-But I think that's it.

...from watching you

is like...

-There's the time aspect.

-It's the time.

I just wish that I

could be a father.

Like I don't think

I want to be a mom.

-Nadia's going to

take you for a walk. -Mama.

-It's cold out.

-(CRYING)

Ezra, it's freezing out.

We're going for a walk.

MOSS:
There's no question in my mind

that I wanted and want to have kids.

NADIA:
Mmm-hmm.

-I've always known that.

MOSS:
But as I got older and as my life

became about being in a rock band

and being an artist

and being an independent lady,

I stepped away

from wanting to have kids

as soon as I could

because I knew that once I did,

it would mean...

That I would become

this mother.

There's this bizarre thing

that you become a mother and you

become like kind of grotesque, you know?

Even though everyone will say to you,

"Oh, it's so amazing what you're doing.

"It's so wonderful."

You know?

"Wow."

But at the same time you feel

this kind of pulling away.

Like, holy sh*t,

where did everybody go?

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