October Baby Page #7

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Excuse me.

I'm sorry,

but we need to close

for the evening.

Oh, uh-

I didn't know.

I'm- I've never

been here before.

I'm Hannah.

Um- Hello.

Um-

We have services daily,

if you'd like

to come back.

I'm actually a-

I'm Baptist.

I guess

you should know that.

[ Chuckling ]

And...

why did you come?

I don't know, really.

I guess I'm trying to

figure out how to let go of...

things.

"Things"?

Can't figure out...

how to let go...

of the fact that

I feel hatred for myself...

and others.

There. I said it.

What is it

that you want to say?

Just-

[ Exhales ]

say what you feel.

Well, three weeks ago I found out

that my entire life is a lie.

So I went on a trip.

I thought if I went,

that I...

would get

all these answers,

and somehow when I got back,

I would feel different.

But I don't.

My parents

aren't really my parents.

[ Sighs 1

And my real parents...

tried to abort me.

And I have a brother.

Well, I had a brother.

He died shortly after

the, um-

I'm angry at my parents

for not telling me sooner...

and making me think that I was

just like everybody else.

I'm angry at my real mom...

for- for not wanting me.

Why didn't she want me?

What's so wrong with me?

I found her.

And she still

doesn't want me.

And I feel guilty.

Part of me feels like-

[ Sighs 1

he should be alive...

and I shouldn't.

I wonder if he would have

been a better person than me,

what he would have been like.

I just- I-

I just hate myself...

for feeling this way.

[ Exhales ]

I see.

[ Exhales ]

This, uh, cathedral...

was built in 1893.

Named for Saint Paul

the Apostle.

It's-

[ Chuckles ]

magnificent.

He wrote a letter to the

church at Colossae and said,

Because we have been

forgiven by God,

we should forgive

each other.

In Christ,

you are forgiven.

And because

you are forgiven,

you have the power

to forgive.

To choose to forgive.

Let it go.

Hatred is a...

burden...

you no longer

need to carry.

Only in forgiveness...

can you be free,

Hannah.

A forgiveness

that is...

well beyond

your grasp...

or mine.

[ Chuckles ]

A forgiveness

that you-

you can't find

on a trip...

or even

in this cathedral.

But if the Son

shall set you free,

you will be free

indeed."

Well-

[ Laughs ]

I guess you'd better

close up then, huh?

What was

your brother's name?

His name was Jonathan.

Jonathan wants you

to live your life, Hannah.

Live it to the full.

[ Knocking ]

Come in.

[Sighs]

Um-

I've been giving this

a lot of thought,

and I wanted to tell you

that I...

am sorry.

I'm sorry that I...

overreacted.

So you're still

enrolled in school.

Thanks, Dad.

And I think you should

probably pack.

What for?

What's this?

I know that you

need to finish this.

But, with your permission,

I'd like to be there

when you do.

Uh-

But there is this one place

I would like to take you...

on the way,

if it's okay with you.

Sure.

The doctor said there wasn't

much brain activity, but...

I saw him smile.

We truly believed

that God would heal him.

We were just so young, we didn't

know what to tell ourselves,

so naturally

we never told you.

Days became years,

years became decades,

and you still didn't know.

After he died,

I just remember holding you.

I would hold you for hours.

I would not let you out of my sight.

'Cause I was afraid

that if I lost you too-

So I would just hold you

because I couldn't let go.

And, sweetheart,

I still haven't.

[Sniffling ] And I'm sorry, Hannah.

I'm sorry for the journal.

I'm sorry for keeping so much from

you, for how controlling I've been.

But, sweetheart, it's not

because I don't trust you.

It's because I'm trying, honestly,

to learn how to trust God again.

So please,

don't, uh-

Dad.

Yeah?

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I love you.

And it's okay.

Yeah?

Thank you

for bringing me here.

Sure this is

how you wanna do it?

[ Mouths Word ]

[ Intercom Beeps ]

Stacy, can-

[ Sniffles ]

[ Sobbing ]

[ Phone Ringing ]

[ Beep ]

Hello?

Jason.

/tis Dr. Lawson.

Listen, / wanted to say that I

assumed the worst about you.

But Hannah talked to me.

She told me how

you treated her with respect,

how much you carea

and I think

you should call her.

I, uh-

Listen, I'm not say/ng that I

think you have to call her.

But I just think

that you should.

I'm not trying to PW

I just want to know what your

intentions are about my daughter.

I love her.

You need to call her.

Yeah. [ Chuckles ] Okay. Yeah.

I-I definitely will.

Thanks.

Ah, this stupid-

Hi, baby.

Hi.

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[ Chuckles ]

[ Phone Ringing 1

Oh.

[ Hannah ]

Hello?

What? A date?

Like, me and you?

[ Luggage Tumbling

Down Stairs]

What about my dad?

Yeah. I mean, I do.

I mean... I will.

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[ Hannah ] This is stupid.

You're stupid.

You wanna ruin the surprise? Yes!

I dressed for dinner.

Five times, actually. Five times?

I don't go on a lot

of dates, obviously.

Yeah.

Whoa! I'm good. Okay.

Are you sure?

My dad is scary.

Yeah, I know that.

Okay, ready?

Three, two, one. Open 'em.

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I thought

you should finish.

Finish what?

Your play.

What do you think?

I think we need actors.

Don't worry.

I was in a play once.

Kindergarten.

Okay.

I was Sheep #5.

Helo, Desmond.

You can dispense with the pleasantries.

A bit trifle,

don't you think?

I think-

[ Laughs]

They ex- They have high exp- They

have expec- Standards for me.

Standards for me.

I'm pretty terrible, aren't I?

Yes.

Yeah. Well, look, when I was

Sheep #5, I didn't have lines.

I just- I wore

a sweaty wool suit.

I did not just say that.

That is ridiculous.

Um- I don't suppose

you're talking to-

[ Laughing 1

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Okay, I think

this is the last of it.

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