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and you get, you know,

ten times as high,

and it lasts

ten times as long,

but then, it, like, gets

so out of control so fast.

If I was lucky, you know,

it would only take me

ten minutes to hit a vein,

and then I could go

lay back down.

I had no veins left.

I mean, in my neck,

and the side of my face,

palms of my hands,

my fingers,

I mean, like, on my chest,

and I'd be covered in blood.

I would just sleep all day,

till I woke up

from being sick again,

and then I'd have to go

through it all over again.

When I started using...

I had my own three-bedroom,

two-story house.

I was a stay-at-home Mom

with my two-year-old daughter.

Me and my daughter's father,

we each had our own new cars.

We had a pool in our backyard,

we had two dogs.

I had, like,

the perfect life.

By the time I started

injecting heroin,

I had lost my house.

We'd sold both of our cars,

and I lost custody

of my daughter.

Kelly:

I remember Ashley saying,

"I don't want

to do this anymore."

It was no longer a party,

and she was a slave to it.

Stephany:

She got into a fight with her fianc,

and she went and got a motel.

I was clean at the time,

and I...

I didn't think

that she was using.

Kelly:

Ashley had been in treatment.

She had stayed in

just long enough

to get through

the withdrawal period,

and she felt fine,

and then she walked out

of treatment early.

That's when it can take 'em

because they think

that they can use

what they were using before.

They say,

"Well, I did this much,"

um, "so I can handle it,"

and they can't.

Their body is back

to what it was.

And when I would

tell my daughter,

"I'm so worried

about you, Ashley,"

she would say,

"Mom, I'm... I'm too young,

and pretty to die.

I'll be fine.

I'm gonna beat this."

Stephany:

I think that maybe she thought

she could just do it

one more time

and get that

really good high,

and then not

do it anymore.

And it's like... that one time,

you never know.

Stephany:
Her fianc called me,

and he was at the motel,

and she wasn't

answering her phone.

Stephany:
He called me and he was,

like, hysterical.

Stephany:

He started banging on the doors.

He called 911,

and told the operator,

"My girlfriend

is a heroin addict.

"She's not

answering her phone.

"I know she's in trouble.

Please come to this hotel

and help me."

Stephany:

I remember where I was at.

I was at the

Taco Bell drive thru.

I remember seeing the police

station's number come up on my phone.

And I remember

picking up the phone,

and it being a man's voice.

He was like,

"I'm sorry for your loss."

And I was just like...

I was like,

"What are you talking about?"

And, um, he's like,

"I need you to come

into the police station."

And I just... I knew.

And...

It was like my whole

world just, like, stopped.

It was the worst nightmare

that anybody could have.

I miss her every day.

From morning till night,

it's an all-day thing.

Stephany:

I was suicidal when I lost my sister.

I would just do

massive amounts,

$200 worth of drugs,

in an hour, in a sitting.

Just praying, like,

"Please don't

let me wake up.

I don't want

to live anymore."

Stephany:

She was like a second mom to Audrey.

She acted like Audrey

was her daughter.

You know, she would...

She would take over

when I would get stressed or...

Kelly:

You two were inseparable.

Stephany:

I can never imagine going back to...

living like I was.

I could never imagine

going back to...

sticking myself with needles,

15 times a day

for hours at a time.

I've been clean for

long enough to where...

it scares me,

the thought of using,

because I know

one time could kill me.

This is a crucial time...

now that you,

you have clean time.

She had that,

that clean time,

and then she used...

and I feel like you're...

you're right there,

and it's so scary.

Anytime I get a call

in the middle of the night,

I-I get that gut feeling.

Everything tightens up.

I couldn't imagine...

putting you through

losing another... child.

Britt Doyle:

That picture...

was taken when I was,

I think, six years old.

I sort of remember that day,

like a little bit,

but I remember that

that photo was...

in her room always, 'cause she said

it was her favorite photo of us,

and I really like it too.

This cross...

she gave to me when

my parents split up,

because I told...

I was really sad one day,

and I was like...

"Mom, I'm not gonna

be able to see you anymore.

I'm not gonna live with you,"

and she was like,

"I have the same necklace.

"I'm gonna give you this one,

"and if you wear it,

then we're gonna...

"just know that

we're together,

and just know that

I'm thinking of you."

"Dear Preston,

"I've enjoyed every minute

of our time in Tahoe.

"You're this

amazing young man

that makes me

proud every day,

"and more every year.

"There are incredible things

that await you in your future.

"You're a success in life...

"and always will be,

because you have that special spark

"to do and enjoy

life to its fullest.

I love you. XO, Mom."

And I read that...

literally any time I have

any sort of problem in my life,

because there's just

the fact that she wrote that.

It just...

I don't know,

just shows what kind of person I

had by my side for all those years.

Here's a screenshot

of a text she sent me.

And, uh, she did not

mean to send that.

She, like...

was just probably

high out of her mind.

That mean picture.

I know, I'm sorry.

This one's funny.

Wait.

Britt:
Whoa!

Britt:
Get off!

I'm ticklish, and I don't like being tickled.

Wynne:

I wasn't tickling you.

I was trying to make a wish

on your tummy, you big biddy.

Ow! Not happening!

Britt:

And she wipes her nose with my hair.

Doyle:

Each one of our three kids were C-sections,

but the third one was

a particularly hard pregnancy,

so when Wynne got

out of the hospital,

they gave her a lot of...

uh, prescriptions,

I mean, in a row.

I had no idea

that she'd been

given Oxycontin,

or Vicodin or any of the opiates

that we all know about now.

We had no idea that

there were any dangers.

About a month and a half

after the baby was born,

Wynne was starting

not to get out of bed.

And that's when

I started finding

the pill bottles

around the house.

All of a sudden, now

there's pills all the time,

and there's more

and more doctor visits,

and there's more and more

trips to the pharmacy,

and she's getting less and less

interested in anything.

She was hiding 'em,

and she was getting 'em

from multiple doctors.

Different doctors that started

showing up on pill bottles.

Doctors were just

throwing pills at her.

And by the end of the year,

you know, she just was

a totally different person.

Completely different.

It was like Jekyll and Hyde.

When we were dating,

I had never thought

about any kind of addiction,

or alcohol, I mean, anything.

We went out

a few times a week.

We'd go to restaurants

and drink wine.

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