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money so l could pay for my studies.

Then this came up and l thought:

'OK, let's do it. '

Then l met another German girl.

She asked me if l would like to come over

to America. Then l met Mark Spiegler.

He hooked me up with a lot ofjobs.

l was working almost evey day.

Different things: porn, stills.

From then on l realized

this might be something

that l'll be doing

for quite some time.

l don't know, if you have

seen the glass ones.

They have like...it looks

like an egg on top?

That's my favorite for spinning

it around in the p*ssy!

Yeah, your ass sure does open up,

huh?! - Yeah.

lt doesn't look like it can

take anything and then it does.

Yeah, it's tight.

You know a lot of girls want

to pretend they are yeah,

'l'm a porn-star! ' And they are

partying and they are f***ing

But those girls never last. It's the

ones that, they do a good job on the set,

but then they go home and they have

a real life and they save their money.

Thank you lady!

l have to say,

Mark is not only my agent.

l trust him.

He's like a friend to me.

We respect each other a lot

and l'm vey happy

that l was with him

from the beginning.

l think that it's kind of important,

that girls,

when they are not working not to hang

out with porno people from the set...

to have a real life.

It's better for your mind.

l'm a vey typical East German girl.

l was growing up without TV.

The only thing for me and my friends

to do was sit around and talk.

l couldn't just go shopping, getting

a handbag for 3000 bucks, you know?

Girls who were able to do that are the

ones who have the fame-syndrome.

There are 3 subtypes of people...

l put this in my thesis,

that are drawn to pornography:

And that are those

that are addicted to sex,

those that are addicted to money,

and those that are addicted to fame.

The people that have the most

crucial needs in my opinion

and my experience are the people

that are addicted to fame.

Because these people have

compromised backgrounds.

Perhaps some vey bad family life...

some abuse growing up as a child.

So therefore on their 1$th birthday

they end up in Los Angeles, thinking...

that pornography is going to be

the backdoor into Hollywood.

And the 'backdoor' part would be accurate,

but Hollywood however...

it's vey rare that you are going to

end up as a ''Meyl Streep'' actress,

if you are starting out

having two d*cks in your ass!

When you are f***ing for a living, not

eveyone is going to understand this...

and even less are going to like this.

So, it does separate you to a

degree from the rest of society.

There is an e-mail from Sasha Grey,

l received her original

e-mail April 10th 2006:

'Hi! My name is dadada. Here is some

nude photos, personal info, enjoy! '

l hope to hear back soon.

She didn't include a stage name,

because she didn't have one yet.

Open to discuss it.

Then she wrote - and

she never worked before:

'Available for solo, stills, girl-girl,

girl-girl-anal, boy-girl, boy-boy-girl,

ATM, anal, DP, double vag,

interracial, throat-gagging,

swallowing, cream-pie,

BDSM, fetish, facials, feature dancing,

bachelor-parties

and groups of no more then 4. '

Well she worked with 6 people

the first time she worked.

Well Sasha is a little

different in my opinion.

She wasn't, you know, the typical, bouncy

porno-girl who was just kind of there.

She...what really struck

me about her was...

the letter that she wrote

to the agent Mark Spiegler

about why she wanted to be in porn.

l'm in the adult filmscene

for mainly one reason:

On average most of the porn is boring and

does not arouse me physically or visually.

There is only a handful of porn stars that

continue to push the boundaries of...

what women are supposed

to like or be like in bed.

This entices me to be one

of these young women,

not mention my lust

for sexual creativity.

l hunger for all modes

of sexual perversity.

l'm determined and ready to be a commodity

that fulfills eveyones fantasies.

After hearing it l was like:

'This type of person is the girl

who needs to be in porn. '

l wanna make it nasty.

l wanna make it dirty.

l wanna make it filthy.

l wanna make it creative

l don't want just

a 1, 2, 3 step formula:

Blowj*b, p*ssy, doggy in the ass.

l don't want that.

And a pop on the face.

l'm sick of that. It's routine.

Pornography should always be

exploring sexuality in evey form.

Who inspired me?

Well Belladonna did of course!

And so l did one scene with her

and l guess l was like

the first girl she ever had sex with.

l was like 'that was so hot! '

So l said 'Let's just do a movie together.

'l booked her for 5 scenes.

l just had her planned for 5 scenes.

Then l said, when you come to this,

bring a list of things that you really

wanna ty or do in this movie.

l wanna fulfill some fantasies of yours.

Dude, she had like 2 pages typed out:

descritions, details.

She's just got her sh*t

together and l like,

l really look up to her and

she's only 1$, you know?

l wanna show people that

l love what l do, you know?

This isn't a 9 to 5 job where l go home and

beat my kids and hate my husband, you know?

l like what l do. l don't have a...

l don't consider myjob boring at all.

And , yeah, it's definitely

something l'm proud of.

We started dating after she

moved into the business.

So she let me know right upfront;

'This is what it is,

this is what it's not. l'm telling

you the truth, you know?

We have a strong friendship.

l don't want to ruin it, but l have

romantic feelings for you,

but l'm a pornstar.

So you gotta be OK with that? '

And honestly, it's a challenge.

Sometimes when l know she's shooting,

she goes off, l think about it in my brain.

lt was hard to get used to.

'Well, she's probably doing

something now, you know?

Probably got a dick

in her mouth now. '

Like she showers, she comes home.

If l didn't know any better,

she could have just spend

a hard day at the office.

l don't know? How do you see you male

perFormers, your co-stars as...

l see my co-stars as a prop, you know?

That's my tool and l use it.

That's my gun and l use it to shoot.

lt's like midnight and l'm like 13 years

old and went over to my neighbours house.

l said:

'Alan, you've got to take my virginity! '

l lost my virginity at 13,

because my older sister told me that

she had lost her virginity. OK?

And l wanted to be just like her.

l come home to find out that my big sister

never lost hers until she was 16 years old.

By the time l was 1$ years old

l slept with 9$ people.

Me and my sister were always like

outcasts, like nerds, geeks growing up.

We only had each other.

She's like, she's my world.

Throughout high school...

it just didn't work out for us, like with

the whole making friends and you know,

being part of the

crowd and fitting in.

Thank God, she's here!

- Hey, hey.

lt looks like a cartoon character.

- l know. It's odd!

This is the layout that me and my sister

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