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band in the world!"

Yeah, but every band's

got to go through life

thinking that, you know?

-To keep going.

-Yeah.

Yeah.

MOSS:
It was

kind of a crash.

I had to accept

the realization that

I can't pick up

where I left off.

Will is not enough to

make this stuff happen.

You can go...

You can go all by yourself.

JOAN MOSS:
Really?

I... I did it for...

Remember when we were playing,

me, you and Oscar?

And I had to be the monster

eating up the potatoes.

So you could be a little bit sad when

Mommy and Daddy go away,

and then when

they come back

do you have big,

huge hugs for them? Eh?

So when you're a grownup, are you

going to have to go to work sometimes?

And what will

your little boy do?

EZRA:
Going be sad.

He's going to be sad.

But then...

-Whoa, whoa...

-(JOAN LAUGHS)

I'm getting so tired.

Sleepwalking, sleep talking

When all she looks

at you to see

A faded page of memories

Sleepwalking, sleep talking

About you

Sleepwalking,

sleep talking

What do you do

when you don't belong?

You're in your corner

What do you say

when you're always wrong?

Is it any wonder

Day and night,

it's night and day

MOSS:
Maybe we'll be lucky enough

to have more opportunities

where we can tour for one week or

ten days at a time. NADIA: Yeah.

Where we can just

leave him with Mum, who's...

Oh, my God, without her,

where would we be? -Yeah.

So, I'm planning on looking

for work in September. -Mmm-hmm.

Um, well, I guess

that's really soon.

'Cause that's where I'm at.

'Cause we're gonna be...

You know, Ezra and I

are going to be home a lot.

He'll be in daycare,

you know.

Who knows if I'll ever be able

to not have a job again after now?

-Yeah.

-Who knows?

You know, I didn't know I would be

at this position at this age, but...

Like you thought you'd probably

be in a career that made you money?

No, I don't know

what I thought.

Actually, I don't know what

I thought. I don't know.

I just sort of was just

doing this band thing

and year after year it kept

being the thing... Enough.

(CHILDREN TALKING

INDISTINCTLY)

What if it chews

on something?

It's not going to.

Cats aren't dumb.

Yeah, I'm so excited!

There's a good amount of fans out there

that are gonna get really excited.

I think we should do

a couple of fliggle wiggles.

Yeah.

BOY:
Do the fliggle wiggle.

(SINGING)

It was really moving seeing

you being in charge of them.

-Oh, really?

-Like, Ezra definitely has

changed me in that I'm not shy

around children anymore. -Yeah.

(ALL CHEERING)

(SINGING)

-It was good.

-Yeah, yeah.

So he got hassled,

but we were okay.

JULIE DOIRON:
I feel guilty

about my path I took as a mother.

(SINGING)

I kept touring.

My husband at the time really, really

encouraged me to keep touring.

He didn't want me

to ever, like, resent...

He didn't want me to

give up what I was doing,

'cause I was already

a touring musician before I had kids.

In hindsight, I really wish

that I had not kept touring.

I say that to people

sometimes and they say,

"Well, you're crazy.

You don't really wish that.

"Do you really wish that

you had stopped music?"

And ultimately, like, I missed out

on a lot of stuff

and you can't really...

I mean, I can't ever

go back that way.

I often feel like I'm a fraud

because I feel

like people have

sort of looked up

to me for advice

or they see...

Like I know that people probably go,

"Okay, well, Julie Doiron,

"she did have kids

"and she's still touring,

like, she's doing it all

"and so can I."

It may look like

an ideal situation,

but, like, I ruined

my marriage,

and I lost custody

of my children, and so I...

Yes, I have three amazing kids

who love me, and they

know I'm their mom,

and now I have to tour

way more because

I have all these other bills.

If I'm not on the road

I don't have any money.

My kids tell me

over and over, like,

"You're always going

to be our mom.

"Like, we understand

that you're gone."

But I constantly feel guilty

about not being there.

Talking about this right now

is making me feel amazing

and maybe I won't feel

depressed for the next week.

That's great.

And I'm just realizing

like maybe women should be getting...

Well, obviously women should be

getting together way more often

to talk about

all this stuff.

You need so much help to be able

to continue to

have a...

To have creative output

and to be a mother.

You can't focus

100% on your art

and also be a mother.

I don't actually think

that's humanly possible

or physically possible.

-Right.

MOSS:
The degree to which

privilege and circumstance

play in us being able

to do what we do.

Childcare.

Access to healthcare.

Most people in the world

don't have that.

And it's only because of these

things that I have this luxury

to take a step back

to consider trying to be a mother

and a creative person.

I am overwhelmed

by gratitude for that.

MENUCK:
I don't live a healthy life

and I want to live a long time

'cause I want to see my

kid get older, you know?

I mean, I live the life

of a musician

and it's not a healthy life.

People die in their fifties and sixties

just from staying on the road.

That's a real thing.

All I do is tour and rehearse

and worry about money.

In spite of all that, I love Ezra so much,

I love Jessica so much.

I like who I am more

than I ever have,

and I like being a father.

All that matters to me

now is that Ezra stays happy

and that Jessica has as

much time as she needs

to figure out what

she wants to do.

Everything else

is just noise.

What we loved was not enough

Even though we wanted to

And this I learned

and thus I gleaned

(SINGING)

Kiss it quick

and rise again

MOSS:
I don't know if I can start

something new, you know what I mean?

To imagine starting something,

like to conceive of

beginning is very daunting.

Like starting something artistically,

we're sort of...

We're in that now, we're doing it,

so that's one thing.

But you mean starting

it like trying to get

to a place where we can have

shows that don't lose money?

It's not open to us

to be a young band

trying to make it.

It's just, even if we tried,

it's not a door

that's open.

Nothing, no part

of this culture is like,

"Older women artists,

let's see what you got!"

I know.

Like zero, zero, zero

part of this culture. -Exactly.

All I want to do right

now is play guitar,

which has come

from us being together.

I know, it really has

made me so happy.

It's been so fun.

MOSS:
Everything in the world

tells me it's bad to get old.

But

every single one of us is doing it,

so how could that be bad?

Oh, my God!

(MOSS LAUGHING)

EZRA:
I'm happy

to see you.

MOSS:
I'm so happy

to see you!

We just came back

to find you.

JOAN:
Are you happy

to see Mommy?

(INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS)

(PLAYING HARMONICAS)

Why you closing

your eyes?

When I really feel the music

I close my eyes.

(BOTH VOCALIZING)

(MUSIC PLAYING)

MOSS:
You know what,

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