DMT: The Spirit Molecule Page #5

I thought I died.

I saw the white clouds,

Renaissance, white fluffy clouds, with the gods and the angels and that all stuff, that's what I saw.

I thought I was dying and going out but

I did take a quick look at Sindy and a quick look at Rick as I had my eyes open and

they were both there watching, looking very calmly.

And I thought "That's really good news, my body looks fine."

So I didn't know whether it was my birth, I was re-experiencing

my death which was yet to come because I, I know that

time crubmles, the linearity of time is totally meaningless in these states.

You are at the God-head, the point where all time folds in on itself.

More and more layers of my humanity start peeling off

finally

The last, you know, almost the last layer and I can not even describe what it is

but at some reaches way in there is like the last layer of that, which defines you as a human being

and it goes [khkk].

You're not longer a human being, in fact, you are no longer anything you can identify.

There is no concept of time, it was so disorienting

I was so terrified, I have never in my entire life, been so terrified.

To be blasted out of my body

To leave my body behind, to be going

at warp speed, backwards, through my own DNA,

out the other end, into the universe.

And so I went right under this white light.

As soon as I went into it, I lost any sense of being different.

Any sense of what I was doing, past, any sense of future.

It was absolutely blissful and euphoric and I just felt like

it wouldn't I. I was everything.

I was the light, there is no sense of separation, no shadows, no differences

no past, no future, it was all present and a white-yellow light.

Then I felt myself falling out of this light,

and as I felt out of it, I could feel the light was like a glow, like the sun with flames coming out.

Lapping out, and I could already start to feel this tremendous separation.

I reached across and it was suddenly I'm in the Universe, in this huge void

with these beings on the other side and I

put out my hands in this incredible rainbow of pink light, went between me and these entities.

And i was trying to make it be like a white light.

But it was this incredible pink light, this energy of love

that we, this capacity of love, that we as humans beings have, that I was trying to just send to them.

This meteorite trip through the infinite space of the interior consciousness is

up pops the picture puzzled pattern door and

I'm now whizzing through this sucker, like if it was nothing, I'm flying through it.

But now I know what the picture puzzled pattern door is.

The picture puzzled pattern door is the furthest reaches of your humanity.

This is the doorway into the, what defines you as a human being.

When you go pass that, you stop being human to a degree

and the further you get pass this point, the futher away you go from being a human being.

But right here this picture puzzled pattern door is everything, it's everything what defines you as a human being.

This is your ...

This picture puzzled pattern door is you!

This is like the actual core of where all of reality is emanating from.

This is where meaning comes from, symbols were pouring out, they were intertwined.

Every symbol and, or letter in every language

was pouring out of this point.

And I looked around in my environment and I was trying to absorb everything, to understand

but there were all of these machines or structures or things that

I had never seen before, that I had no idea what they were

I was like a caveman in a computer lab.

I didn't have any idea, but I knew in my intellectual awarness that this

was a very advanced civilization or

life forms or whatever they were,

they were, they were so far advanced from what we know here on Earth.

There's one state of, in it, I call it "the hobby horses"

and they're interlocking, articulating, vibrating hobby horses

and I use that and that's what they seem like to me. They interlock and

they form a visual pattern thats seems infinite in scape.

And then you on the inside, outside, inside, everyside.

And so it's less possible to use, you know, words sort of start to escape you.

The texture of the space was very much like an animated Mexican tile.

It seemed to be hyper vivid in color, in a technicolor sense.

But also very clay-like in earth, you know, like with an earthen

pointing towards Earth, but not really being on Earth.

There was no eye, there was just a sense of a witness.

Being suspended on this incredible vaulted space.

Like a cathedral made out of a stained glass of all imaginable colors.

Unbelievable brilliance and saturation of color.

Just this amazing pattern in this dome, this gigantic dome, it was.

It felt like, it was like the size of a small planet.

And were these winged beings, I don't remember exactly what they looked like.

Angels? Something like angels that were majestically kind of flying through the space.

But there was something about the quality of how they were flying, it was unique and I've never seen anything like it.

It was like a sense of another realm that was there.

My sense was at some point, there was this implicit sense: "This is the divine realm. This is the divine realm.".

It was not like a thought, but it like was this implicit kind of groaking (??) recognition.

It was all very, very impersonal

until I got to this space where I realized that I was in the area

where the souls await rebirth.

And I was there and I had been there

so many times before, I recognized it

and this incredible transcendent peace came over me, I have never in my life

ever felt such peace.

Everything was stripped away, every hope, every fear, every attachment

to the material world was completely stripped out of me.

I was free to just be the essence of a soul.

After the medicine wore off

There is that familiar sensation of kind of coming back into the body

I do remember that,

that was part of almost all these experiences, of, kind of

coalescing back into sensory awareness.

And a sense of having a body, and of that becoming a little more substantial

and "Oh yeah, here I am, I live in a body and I'm okay."

So Laura removes the eye shades

and I ask not really with my eyes open quite yet.

I ask:
"How long I was gone?"

Because I needed to know.

And Rick chimes in like "15 minutes".

For a moment I'm shocked. I'm like, you know.

The mind has to try to catch up.

Because now whe whole cognitive dissonance of the experience has to, has to catch up.

I was gone for 15 minutes!

A thousand years of experience, in 15 minutes.

Well, to say the least, it was profound, it was, it was profound.

I mean, it's amazing, it's amazing what a human being can experience

in a hospital bed.

I mean they can experience almost the whole universe

you know, life, death, everything in between.

This is not some recreational thing

and I don't believe anybody should enter this lightly,

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