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If you could live life all over again

and could choose,

would you choose to be homosexual?

Not unless it was thrust upon me

as it has been...

by the fact that I am,

and there is nothing I can do about it.

Heaven knows I've tried.

No, there's absolutely no advantage

in being a homosexual

in a heterosexual world, obviously.

And there's no happiness, really.

J" You just want to live your life

J" The best way you know how

J" But they keep on telling you

J" That you are not allowed

J" They say you are sick

J" That you should hang your head in shame

J" They are pointing fingers

J" And want you to take the blame J"

- A brain specialist?

- Psychiatrist.

I thought as much.

You want to psychoanalyse me, don't you?

You want to look inside my brain,

see the wheels go around!

Now, wait a moment...

(Man) To dissect me like a guinea pig

then show me off

to your distinguished colleagues

as an interesting case.

Now that's fit, isn't it?

(Decker) Hardly, but it's possible

that I may be able to help you.

Perhaps you'll have a case

to make your complexes stand on end.

You can write a big fat book about it!

(Laughter)

J" This pain

J" It is a glacier moving through you J"

(Reporter) Doctors,

more than most people,

should perhaps understand

what causes men to be homosexual.

This man is a doctor,

but he is also a homosexual.

It just makes you feel

you might just as well be in prison,

'cause it's a sort of prison anyway.

- Do you think you need help?

- (Man) Yes, I do.

I think every homosexual needs help.

Homosexuality is one manifestation

of a failure to fully develop.

- (Reporter 2) Does your mother know?

- Yeah.

What does she think?

She just thinks it's disgusting.

She can't accept it.

J" So don't you become paralysed with fear

J" When things seem particularly rough J"

(Reporter)

Did you find it hard to come to terms

with the fact that you are a homosexual?

Yes, from when

I was about 16, until about...

20, 22 or 23.

The whole of that time,

it was associated in my mind with guilt,

sordid matters...

elderly, unpleasant men.

J" Don't you pay them f***ers

As they say, "No, never mind"

J" They don't give two shits about you

J" It's the blind leading the blind

J" What they want is commonly

Referred to as theocracy

J" And what that boils down to

Is referred to as hypocrisy

J" Don't listen to anyone

J" Get answers on your own

J" Even if it means that sometimes

J" You feel quite alone

J" No one on this planet

Can tell you what to believe

J" People like to talk a lot

J" And they like to deceive J"

(Reporter 2) Don't you ever go

to your family at Christmas?

I'm not in the family, dear.

Never got on with them anyway.

I did have a friend...

J" This pain

It is a glacier moving through you

J" And carving out deep valleys J"

We lived together for years.

J" And creating spectacular landscapes J"

A real love-match it was, you know.

And I've never wanted anything since.

J" With precious minerals and other stuff

J" So don't you become paralysed with fear

J" When things seem particularly rough

J" This pain

J" It is a glacier moving through you

J" And carving out deep valleys

J" And creating spectacular landscapes

J" And nourishing the ground

J" With precious minerals and other stuff

J" So don't you become paralysed with fear

J" When things seem particularly rough J"

(Reporter) I think one of the barriers

to public acceptance for you

is that normal people,

or most normal people,

find what you physically do, disgusting.

Well, personally, I find that

what a normal heterosexual couple do

is just the same for me.

I find it...

Well, I won't say disgusting,

but unnatural and repulsive.

Sorry for them? Not me.

It's always excuses.

Every newspaper you pick up,

it's excuses.

It's the environment.

Too much love as kids, or too little.

They can't help it.

We are in danger

of permanently damaging our social fabric.

(Man) This is dealing

with a twilight area of abnormal people.

What is lesbianism?

What causes it? Can it be cured?

I wish I was normal.

I want to be cured!

- (Reporter) Would you like to be cured?

- No.

Why not?

I'm perfectly happy the way I am.

I have no desire to be heterosexual.

I don't see any advantages

in being heterosexual.

Except for the fact

one might have police protection, but...

No, I have no desire to change.

Even if I could.

(Reporter) Can you tell by looking

at a woman whether she is a lesbian?

- Not at all.

- You think that's a complete myth?

An absolute myth!

Because I've been looking out hard enough!

(Woman) For years and years and years,

I've fallen in love with various women,

but they've never reciprocated my feeling.

Not until I was 36

did anyone reciprocate my feeling.

And I used to fall in love

and then feel

quite happy about it at first,

and I thought, "Oh, but it's hopeless,

she won't reciprocate my feeling".

And I was right. She didn't.

I very often remain friendly

with that person,

but, of course, I was very disappointed.

(Reporter) Most homosexuals dread

getting old, dread losing their looks,

fear in particular the final loneliness

of living without a companion.

Like men needing wives,

they search for someone

with whom they can establish

a lasting relationship

which includes warmth and protection,

as well as sex.

These two have done that

and have lived together for 26 years.

They might almost be a married couple.

But they're still queer, in the minority.

Have they been happy?

(Married man)

Compared with a lot of married couples...

Reasonably, yes.

Reasonably happy.

After all,

everything is made for married people.

It's not made for people like us...

Things are awkward, aren't they.

(Reporter) A comfortable house

in Wandsworth,

indistinguishable from thousands of homes

owned by married couples.

It's where a lesbian couple

have lived for four years.

A domestic life which began

as conventionally

as any normal married couple

when they fell in love.

Homosexual practices

may not be approved of,

homosexual love cannot be denied.

The feeling of being in love,

I'm sure it's exactly the same

for men and for women.

A feeling of deep emotion towards someone.

And with me, it happened quite suddenly.

I had in fact

only known Julie a few days.

J" My love is the rarest jewel

J" And he grounds me with his love

J" My love, he is rich like caramel

J" And he moves me from above

J" He sees me with tiger eyes

J" And that's where I make my home

J" His heart is a shield

J" Which protects me from the vilest foe

J" His smile's an elixir

J" Which heals the wounds

Of my darkest years

J" When my love is quiet, I consider him

J" And he drives away my fears

J" My love, he reveals himself

J" With tenderness and grace

J" My love has constructed with his arms

J" For me the safest place

J" His laughter destroys my doubts

J" And lifts me up so high

J" His voice it is soothing

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