Enlightenment Guaranteed Page #4

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Not in Tokyo.

Really?

From far away...

The 'yeah-yeah' crows.

You've changed, Gustav.

I feel that way.

You were always:

Now you're more:

How do you feel?

No-no or yeah-yeah?

I'm more so-so.

I told him straight out

what I'm dealing with,

that my wife left me.

And he had said the day before that

you should see other people...

How did he put it?

As if they were you. Just like you.

That's right.

I told him that was hard for me

with my wife,

not to hate her for leaving me.

I didn't know

how to follow his advice

in my case.

And he said, okay, listen:

If you want to hate, then really hate.

Don't eat.

Don't sleep. Hate, hate, hate.

The hate will go away by itself.

I'd see that hate

won't get me anywhere.

It moved me, I must say,

because I asked him about

my mistakes and fear of mistakes.

That I'm so afraid of making them.

So afraid I make even more

and hate myself for them

and scold myself

and try to root them out...

And he said:

Mistakes are a fact of life.

That can't be changed.

Everyone makes them.

I realized that this man,

the way he looked at me,

that he meant me. Way in here.

That my true nature

was what counted.

Not the rest.

The real Gustav.

That I could make mistakes

and he'd still care for me.

And that I...

And he said, for example,

if I'm afraid

of spilling a cup of tea,

my fear keeps me from noticing

how warm the cup feels in my hand

and how good it smells.

Because I'm so busy

trying not to spill it.

Right!

Need music?

About the snow

on the well...

If we have snow on the well

whenever we remove the snow...

How did it go?

When we take the snow away

to fetch water...

No, that's not it.

The snow turns to water.

What did he say?

You have to look at it like this.

There's snow on the well.

And under the snow there's water.

It's a little simpler with me.

I don't worry about things.

I do what's done here.

And it's pretty easy now.

I mean, Petra's gone.

Whatever happens, happens.

Can that be right?

I don't see a thing.

Know what, Ulli?

It's crazy, here in Japan

I'm one of the big people.

I'm not small here.

As a man, that makes me feel good.

Really good.

The more I sweep

the more I feel that

with this sweeping

I'm ridding myself of all the crap

we've stored up.

It's like I'm trying

to move a mountain.

But every day

something new becomes clear

and I feel freer.

I still don't know who I am

but

someday I will.

They're sweeping leaves now.

That was my favorite.

Nice and hot.

Wonderful.

No more cold water baths.

Fine.

Where are they all going?

I'm gay.

Who's gay?

Me. I'm gay.

Really?

Since when?

Always, I think.

What time is it?

Almost seven.

They're doing sutras now, right?

You have the words?

- Want to do the heart sutra?

- Yes.

Can you read it?

Number 4, right?

From there?

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