Running with Demons Page #3

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I was a pharmaceutical sales

representative making I think

at a time

between 60 and 70,

thousand dollars a year.

I had life insurance

and a company car,

I was doing what

society thinks every husband

should be doing.

I was married, I had two

kids at the time and life was

great.

And then here comes this

concept to give back and do

good and really find

my calling if you will.

Which from a person who had

no self esteem whatsoever to

starting to grab some of that

and actually find a

purpose in life, for someone

like me it was huge and like

everything Racing for

Recovery was my life.

I poured everything

into it, financially,

emotionally, it

was everything;

it was my third

child at the time.

Fast forward

nine years later,

it's cost me everything.

It's hard it's... I've, I

remember when the ESPN thing

and I received an email

from a lady from the Midwest

Kansas or

somewhere and she said,

You know I saw your story on

ESPN don't lose your family

over it. And at the time I

remember thinking are you

crazy, I'm not going to

lose my family over this.

And I'm on the verge of

watching that happen and I

I don't want it to happen

because I don't want to

fail I don't

want them to have to explain,

God you had everything

and you screwed that up too

because I screwed

everything else up.

My marriage is on thin

ice; I just struggle with,

how did this happen.

How do you find you're

calling in life and how do

you have people that at

one day can tell you,

You saved my son's life.

And then go home and not

wonder if your

wife and kids are going to be

there. You know?

To travel the world, be in a

hotel room in another country

and I can't sleep because I

wonder what's going on at

home.

Battling am I

doing the right thing,

am I showing my kids that

their dad's a good person.

Am I sacrificing my family to

help someone else and I have.

Not intentionally, I

didn't intentionally say you

know just like I

didn't intentionally say I

want to grow up and be a drug

head I certainly didn't say,

yeah I want to start a

program that is going to cost

me my marriage.

So it's not like I'm a guy

sitting here going screw it,

let her walk out.

I'm not doing

that, I'm going,

I'm sorry and what can I do?

And everything I'm

doing isn't working.

Darwin Holt:
Going at about

9K and then you're

coming back.

Scott Horns:
Slow down.

Darwin Holt:
Then you're...

Then you're coming back 9K.

Todd Crandell:
Okay.

Darwin Holt:
So think 20K.

So you're going up.

Todd:
Okay

Todd Crandell:
So

well be like miles seven.

Darwin Holt:
No don't.

Shh, shh.

Then you got a

climb of about,

I'm going to tell it's a half

an hour so you take your time

to make sure you take

half an hour to get up it.

And then you got it

downhill to the finish.

Todd Crandell:

Okay that's it.

Darwin Holt:
That's rights so

you only have one

Todd:
Okay

Darwin Holt:
We're

getting ready for tomorrow.

Todd Crandell:
So

take your time now.

Darwin Holt:
Right no, no

relax...

Todd Crandell:
Okay I'm

taking a leak I want some.

Scott Horns:

What do you want,

what do you want?

Todd Crandell:
I'll

take some an Endurolyte.

Scott Horns:
Okay.

Todd Crandell:
Some V8

and ensure.

Scott Horns:
Okay all

right let's get it.

Todd Crandell:
And I got

to take a quick break Tony:

Director Tony Armer:

That's fine.

Hey Todd sent Melissa a text

she said awesome and to tell

you that you're

family loves you.

Darwin Holt:
Well see

he's getting tired and he's

starting to fight it and so

what we're really trying to

do now is we're trying to get

give him permission

to back things off and get

fuelled up for tomorrow.

Right now he's thinking that

he needs to keep going hard.

He's trying to find some flow

but he's trying to find flow

at too high a pace.

So we're just trying to

mentally give him the...

what is the the word

I'm looking for.

Scott Horns:
He said he's

tired I thought he meant

physically and then he

mentioned again and then he

said mentally.

He said physically

he's fine. I'm like oh.

Darwin Holt:
Yeah, well

he's just fighting it right.

Scott Horns:
Yeah.

Darwin Holt:
So we're just

trying to give him an out and

the out simply is that he's

going to ease off a little

bit and get fuelled up.

Tony:
And this is only

like day one I mean.

Darwin Holt:
Day one

yeah the problem though,

this part of day one is the

fact that in the back of my

mind in the back of his mind

he still has all of day two

and all of day three.

And that's always there until

it's over with and so you

always worry about

day two and day three until

day two is over with.

And it's a big, big package

still and he isn't through

enough of it

mentally to see the end.

I'm going to tell you take

it easy on the down is you're

not going to make up any

time by being silly okay.

Todd Crandell:

Suppose we can use it.

Darwin Holt:
Second thing is

I want you to drink lots of

that on the down hills

whenever you can when

you're not breaking.

Todd Crandell:
Okay.

Darwin Holt:
We got a car

behind you...

Darwin's Voice OS:

Great first day.

Sounds of a bike spinning

followed by outdoor sounds

Cheering can be heard...

Male Speaker on PA system:

This is Todd Crandell, 43 years

old from Sylvania Ohio Racing

for Recovery superstar...

10 hours, 50 minutes and about

10 seconds and a reminder in

Hawaii when he completed Day

one last year he did 11 hours

1 minute 49 seconds.

Scott Horns:
Wow.

Male Speaker:
So with he is

thirty one and a half minutes

up on the time in Hawaii last

year on the end of day one.

This is the man whose done

18 Ironman triathlons in his

career including this year

he's already competed in

Germany and Switzerland.

So our congratulations, he

is the CEO of Racing for

Recovery.

For those people who

are looking for sobriety.

Todd Crandell:
Hi there kiddo

Female Speaker:
Good job buddy.

Todd Crandell:
I'm

worried about tomorrow.

Female Speaker:
You'll be

fine just get lots of salt in

Todd Crandell:
I mean is

this...

is day two harder

than it is in Hawaii?

Todd Crandell:
Thank God.

Todd Crandell:
Yeah, all

right I'm tired I just did

those two Ironmans a

couple of weeks ago man and

Female Speaker:
Yep.

Todd Crandell:

I'm feeling it.

Todd Crandell:
Yep

see you in the morning.

Todd Crandell:

All right thanks.

rock song ends, birds chirp

Today is then, it's

going to be all right today.

Male Speaker:
Yeah, yeah.

Todd Crandell:
It

did in Hawaii so.

Male Speaker:
Doing

good today I mean.

Todd Crandell:
Yeah I ate

and peeing and you know?

Male Speaker:
Yeah I got it.

Tony Armer:
What do

you think you're time

will be today?

What's your time goal today?

Todd Crandell:
Under 12.

Scott Horns:
12 hrs.

Male Speaker:
Oh wow.

Todd Crandell:
12 Yeah.

Under 12 yeah...

but no I think I did Hawaii's

in under 11.

I didn't do an 11 any day.

Scott Horns:
Yeah it was

like high tens I think...

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