Running with Demons Page #6

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Scott Horns speaking:

Todd Crandell:
Yeah

dude this is cold man.

It's good for you.

Scott Reus:
So after two days

of Ultra man and now you're

sitting in the ice bath.

What do you have to say to

all the people that think the

way that you do it is not

the right way;

the way that you constantly

or your method isn't the

right way?

Todd Crandell:
You know

what that's a fight that I'll

never win.

Somebody just e-mailed

me - listen to this.

Somebody just sent me an

e-mail and said he's in rehab

and he was telling his

counselor that kick boxing

was helping him start to

withdraw get over his drug

addiction.

And the lady said, You can't

do that it'll never work.

And I'm just like, Why would

a counselor tell

somebody that something that

is helping that guy doesn't

work? Well that's' like me

saying,

Well if you want to be sober

you've got to do the Ultra

man. I mean that's just

ludicrous and for me to tell

somebody, Oh what you're

doing is wrong. I can't

believe some people are

actually in a position of

helping people when they

say that kind of stuff.

The counseling is

what I love to do.

I mean I work my butt off

to get my Masters degree and

then to get license as a

professional counselor.

And now I just want

to utilize what I've worked

my tail off to get because

there's nothing better than

sitting down with somebody

who has a drug problem and me

being able to help them.

That's just as much of a high

as finishing one of these

crazy things you know

so this is freezing.

Scott Reus:

It's good for you.

Todd Crandell:

Yeah what time is it?

Scott Reus:
It's - he asks

Scott.

I don't know... is that from his

watch?

Tony speaking:

Todd Crandell:

Should I go longer?

Tony:
The time is what?

05:
57.

Scott Reus:
You have

four more minutes buddy.

Todd Crandell:
He's lying

Scott Reus:
That's four more

minutes of questions.

Todd Crandell:

you're lying Scott.

Scott Horns:

Todd Crandell:
I could not

seriously - that dude saves

my butt.

There's no way I could do

this without him and Darwin

I'm finished.

Done.

Brutal... One more day. I

need to run 52 miles to finish

this thing.

That's it.

Tony:
It's nothing compared

to what you've already done.

Todd Crandell:
No I'd rather

run 52 miles and bike 172.

That was the... that's the day

I get worried about you know?

Tony:
It's all

downhill from here.

Todd Crandell:

Yeah

Unbelievable.

Tony:
How's Mellissa doing?

You talked to her?

Todd Crandell:
Yeah

she's good you know.

Tony:
The kids?

Todd Crandell:
Yeah

everybody's good.

I called my

grandma she's just like,

You got to quit. Tony:

How old is your grandma?

Todd Crandell:
95 you know.

Tony:
What'd she say?

Todd Crandell:
It's

funny I told her I go,

Grandma I rode 172

miles. And she was all

Honey. Just like

Wait no you can't do it,

I mean, she hates this stuff

because she's worried I might

fall over dead or

something you know.

A lot of people - the

people that really are my close

friends and stuff have been

telling me that I really need

to quit this for a long time.

It's the same

thing with drugs.

I keep saying that it's

the same thing but you don't

realize it yourself until you

are ready to make a change

yourself, it

doesn't matter.

But it's all those people

along the way they've been

telling you, You are not

doing something right. Then

you find they are like - Maybe

they got something there.

Tony:
So it's a way you kind

of balance because it's been

something right because it's

helped you and Racing for

Recovery but at the same time

it's something wrong how does

that work?

Todd Crandell:
Well

the volume is wrong.

And I hate the bike and I

don't really like swimming

so. I sure don't like swimming

6.2 miles...

Okay I know it's 6:01.

Where's Scott?

Tony:
I'll

double check for you.

Todd Crandell:
Yeah it's

got to be because my feet are

blue.

Let me see what

my phone says.

Oh dude yeah

it's 6:
05- I'm done.

Tony:
Yeah it's past 6:01.

Todd Crandell:
Alright

I'm taking a shower man.

Nature sounds, birds chirping.

Speaker:
Get

your cameras ready.

As you can see there's always

lot's of energy on day 3

Alright stand back a little

bit and give these guys a bit

of a path please if you could

just make a pathway there.

Todd Crandell:
What

time is it six?

Tony:
No.

Todd Crandell:
Okay.

Todd Crandell:
No I've been

stretching for two days dude.

Tony:
Really?

Todd Crandell:
Yeah, I mean

I'm not, it's alright I'm good.

Tony speaking:

Todd Crandell:
No.

Speaker:
Alright ladies and

gentlemen could we get the

runners to start.

Todd Crandell:

Alright boys good day.

Speaker:
Underneath

the start banner please.

Pacers and all the crew and

[Indiscernible]

Todd Crandell:
Let's do it.

Speaker:
Right at the

sound of the siren.

Three, two, one go.

Rock music kicks in...

Music continues.

Todd Crandell:
Didn't I tell

you, no interviews

while I'm on vacation.

Tony:
You seem to be in

pretty good spirits this

morning.

Todd Crandell:
Oh dude this

is it you know I mean it

We've gone through the hard

stuff man you know what I

mean.

And he's helping me.

Scott I would have been

running this thing completely

different trying to run

the hill and you know.

This is going to be fun.

My... everything I am today

started from the tragedy of

my mom committing suicide.

And for that I'm

fortunate because I know what

I'm supposed to do in

life, I know I had that drug

addiction and survived it

to do what Im doing today

without question and that is

to help somebody else who is

going through it.

So if she's up there looking

down on me I'm sure she

realizes she made a mistake

and but I think she can

finally look down and say

something good is

coming out of that.

And that to me is all I want

to have continue out of this.

But without question this

whole thing with me - with my

mom committing suicide in a

way is benefiting a ton of

people and I'll take that

pain that I've gone through

and trade it for helping

the good of many people

potentially thousands.

That's worth it, yeah.

Granted do I wish I could

have a conversation with my

mom to validate

what I'm thinking?

Yeah that's not going to

happen but I'm going on faith

that says, This is how it's

supposed to be and just do

something good with it.

And I am doing something good

with it racing for

recovery is helping people.

This is what I'm supposed

to do so I owe a lot of it

to my mom

really for doing that.

And I... the thing that I am

at really with her is the

anger I have towards

her is just about gone.

I don't hate her anymore I

used to hate her and call her

a lot of horrific names.

I don't do that anymore.

I'm sorry that

she's not here,

it'd be cool to know her

but I don't have that hatred

anymore and that's

good because that was eating

me alive.

So now it's like Okay this

is what I've been dealt let

me make something good out

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